Jazzy Cooper Fostersのインスタグラム(bordernerd) - 2月6日 08時28分

The last few days have been difficult. I couldn't stop crying as everything and every activity reminded me of Jazzy. In the last 21 days, I had an anxiety about leaving home and her passing away while I am not there. Now I don't want to leave the house because I would have to come back to a Jazzy-less house. I felt like I was fading away, like she was in her final day. Nobody prepared me for this kind of pain.
Many people, including my mom, told me this: It's as if Jazzy was there to see me through to find a partner in life after my divorce...someone she would approve of and make sure I was OK. After I met my husband and got engaged, we thought we could live happily ever after. Then I was diagnosed with my own cancer. Jazzy was there for me every day while I went through the treatment. I just had my first follow up tests, which I had been worried about. I received a good report just one week before Jazzy's passing. My husband (a cancer survivor) also had his follow up scan and received a good report last week. It really was as if she had waited until I was OK.
A year ago I started writing more chapters to add to my book, "Heart Dog." So much more has happened since I published that first book. I was originally planning to finish it in a few years because I didn't think I was going to lose her so soon. But now, writing about her is going to be part of my therapy, I hope, but it's also going to be difficult as she won't be at my feet this time while I write. But I was told that you had to go through the pain in order to heal.
P.s.
Thank you so much for your sincere and caring messages.
#InMemoryOfJazzy

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