Nicole Mejiaのインスタグラム(nicole_mejia) - 4月18日 03時33分

I began modeling in 2012 and quickly learned that my deepest insecurities were the same "flaws" that others saw in me.
The more my following grew, the more vocal people got with their opinions about the way I looked.
There was no way to bottle and push those insecurities deep down anymore.
I needed to face them.
Social media became this surreal place where I was able to get the praise and admiration that I felt I NEEDED in order to NOT have to deal with my insecurities. It also became the place where I was hit in the face with those very insecurities
every
single
day.
Sad thing was, no matter how many nice comments were left on my photos, I was only really affected by the negative ones.
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We view our insecurities as things that we should hide and feel ashamed of when it is those things that hold the potential to teaching us the most.
Talking about our insecurities makes us feel weak and dependent.
We fear rejection and judgment as we feed deeper and deeper into them.
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?What I've found in these brief moments of courageous authenticity is that every single person is craving this exact release.
The freedom to be and say and accept yourself exactly as you are.
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Reading through the love and support from both women AND men who identified with my self-love post is testimony to just that.
Thank you for that.?
I don't know if I'll ever be able to convey just how much you all support me.
Being raw with you pushes me past my comfort zone and into my true self-
but that doesn't mean that it's not a scary place sometimes.
It's in those moments where my strength is drawn from YOU.
Thank you for teaching me and loving me and at times, seeing me for who I was inside when I wasn't able to do that for myself.
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Over the past year, I've been getting anxiety each time I go to post because, even though I know the types of pictures that will "get me followers", I don't always feel true to myself when I post them.
I placed so much importance on "having a following" that I ended up tying my self-worth to maintaining it.
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So this is me facing that insecurity and admitting that I'm ready to let it go.
This is me sending the support and strength- should you need it- to do the same.?

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