A peak inside my mind today. Where am I going? What am I doing? There are still so many pieces of my life that feel disjointed and separate, Packed up and out of my mums home, out of summer in Australia, into mid winter in London, into my best friend’s place, I feel more at home here despite not having had a winter in 5 years and being on the opposite side of the world from my ‘real’ home. My job title is somewhere between a ‘model’, an ‘influencer’ (so 2018-19 lol), and a ‘chocolate maker’? But these titles don’t feel like they encapture me or where I’m at on my journey much.. so what does? I so rarely write from the heart on here at the moment because there’s so many jumbled layers that want to be included, so I’ll just continue my story, One day to recover from the jet lag in London and off I go to Milan, to see what comes from a random and exciting offer from a friend to shoot and go to some meetings and a party, and then by Sunday I’ll be in Iceland beginning Ista level 2, a week of personality death, shamanic initiations and learning about ‘the void’ space in the psyche.. what does that even mean? My mind can’t fully comprehend it but I’ve been dying to do it for months and months. I’ll know more (or less) in a weeks time I guess. Maybe I’ll try to explain it. Maybe I won’t. It all sounds crazy. And mismatched. And feels wonderful. Exciting. Enlivening. I’ve been reassessing my values recently and digging into what ‘sexual empowerment’ actually means to me. At this point in my life it means feeling safe in my body and willing to engage fully with life. All of it. Couragesouly. From a place of feeling grounded in myself and in my integrity. And willing to follow my pleasure. And keep feeling. Through all of it. It’s so much bigger than just in sexual interaction. This little piece.. feels like a good reflection of where I’m at in my spiritual journey currently I guess. I feel a deep new sense of willingness to engage with life more fully this year. That’s my new year’s resolution. Say yes. Trust the unfolding. Follow what feels aligned. It makes the whole journey feel like a big, exciting adventure. Ever unfolding magic.

ameliazadroさん(@ameliazadro)が投稿した動画 - 2019/01/10 22:36:57