ナオミ・シマダさんのインスタグラム写真 - (ナオミ・シマダInstagram)「working on a book that explores my/our relationship(s) to social media has made me so much more aware about how and why I/we use it and the role it plays in our lives. i haven’t really been active on here, as over the last few months I just felt like I wanted to be quiet. during that time I’ve been through multiple forms of heartbreak, grief, loss, fallen apart, tried to put myself back together, grown + persevered in ways I never thought I could. even though I very much believe in ways of living that are wholehearted, honest and open, my pain was something I wanted and needed to take more time and space with. which made interacting with social media more difficult. not only did I feel like I wanted to not be surrounded by so much noise but I didn’t want to have my photo taken or post one of myself because I knew that I just couldn’t hide how I was feeling. I didn’t want to pretend I was okay when I wasn’t. I wanted to sit in my own feelings and if I wanted connection, I needed something more human over digital interaction. Something softer, something a little more tender. an IRL hug and a real shoulder to cry on when a couple of heart emojis just wouldn’t do. I’m slowly coming back out into the world. every day is a process but it’s just made me think about how/why we share trauma and pain publicly and what works and what doesn’t for us as individuals. I think most of the time we share, to feel less alone. there is such power to these stories but I know, that to feel what I needed to feel to rebuild my spirit, I needed to stay present and protect myself from the often overwhelming attention economy. spending less time on my phone has refuelled my senses. It’s not that I’m quitting the internet or don’t see the positives to what it means to have access to this technology, but when these apps have been purposefully built to get us addicted to them, it’s nice to be reminded that I still have a choice in how I choose to interact with them. when we live in a 24hr soul crushing news cycle, sharing joy can be a radical act but taking time out helps me relish even more in the true beauty of being human X」7月4日 19時43分