チェルシー・ハンドラーのインスタグラム(chelseahandler) - 7月15日 04時31分
MINNEAPOLIS, thank you for last night! Such a fun show with great people in an awesome city. I love you guys. And you too, St. Louis 🍊 #lifewillbethedeathofme
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christi_moon
Grief is a patient motherfucker.
I lost both of my parents and my only sister in my 30’s.
Though the loss of the man who fathered me was more about the loss of an idea…you know where my little toddler feet are dancing on top of his shiny shoes …than the loss of an actual person. That actual person has surely never been any sort of loss to this adult (and very rational being) who understands how much better my life was without his particular brand of drunken, abusive, chaos which he so recklessly inflicted on my siblings. I do wonder what my four-year-old self thought when he went off one day and never came back. She surely has a different perspective altogether. Maybe some day I will be brave enough to let her tell me about it.
I lost a couple of breasts (and ovaries) to cancer a decade ago. Cancer is an equally opportunistic, catalytic agent of psychological warfare. Nobody is safe from this peace-of-mindfuck-ing stalker.
My daughter (who has been the center of my universe since that day I found out she was not an ovarian tumor) developed an addictions problem right after high school and I've never felt such complete and total paralyzing fear as during the 3 years that our lives revolved around that monster. I couldn't sleep a for millisecond during that time without Xanax (what a sick paradox that is) for fear that this would be the night where she was in the wrong place at the wrong time with the wrong drug and she would never come back to me.
And yet…. Somehow the losses that I have experienced over the last 18 months or so have completely eclipsed all the others. The emotional devastation has been more than I thought I could bear at times. Somedays it feels hard to get the air to move into and out of my lungs. It's too heavy. Eventually I hope to write a coherent sentence about this experience (even if only for my own eyes) though right now… my hand isn’t capable of moving the pen. I. Am. Simply. Not. Ready.
But I would like to state….loudly, and for the record.
Grief is a patient motherfucker.
cj.smiles
Your show was so transformative. Listening to your truths I no longer felt alone. I laughed I cried I empathized and I met some pretty amazing people. Being sick-hospital stays for so long I’ve lost my friends. I live in emotional and physical pain daily. I fight everyday to see the positives no matter how small. I go out of my way to help the elderly at the store when they can’t reach or lift what they need. I hold the door open for strangers, I volunteer to be anyone’s designated driver but mostly I find myself alone, lost in the trauma within my mind. I’m blessed that My Mom got me to your show, and what an unexpected end to the evening. Thank you @chelseahandler and please thank your tour manager for me. #lifewillbethedeathofme ??
natou009
Just listening to the 2nd ep of your podcast...The loss of your brother at 9 yrs old very much resonated with me. My older brother had to leave my house when I was 9 (long story). I loved him more than anything. How that trauma has manifested in your life very much looks like how I was impacted by my brother leaving me.
Thank you for your honesty. I plan on going to buy your book this weekend :-) Keep up the good fight. ✨
peaceleader_91
I got so flustered seeing you again in person in Minneapolis. I just want to thank you for being so honest and open about your experiences. It’s been so amazing and inspiring to watch you grow so much in these past few years. Much love and peace! ❤️✌️
reuben_chiler_
Yum I love ❤️ your hair love ❤️ you when you smile Chelsea joy you can be my boo love ❤️ love that fresh look when your hair is short your face shines like a diamond ?
smellhaus
@chelseahandler thank you for adding MN to your tour. It was a dream come true hearing you speak live, despite your bashing of vets ?. Love, a local veterinarian.
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