ベス・ロッデンさんのインスタグラム写真 - (ベス・ロッデンInstagram)「Two weeks ago I felt a familiar and awful sour feeling start to overwhelm my body. My extremities were on fire and it felt like I was filled with a heavy sludge. It’s what happens to me when my PTSD is triggered from being kidnapped in Kyrgyzstan. Trauma is awful and always takes me by surprise when it returns. I guess I still naively think that with therapy I should have "dealt" with it by now, that there shouldn't be anymore layers to work through, that I’m in my better place, triumphant and charging forward. But as with everything in life, there's always more to learn and that when I’m a crumpled ball of mess it is actually a time for growth and to sit with the hard and uncomfortable feelings not run from them. It’s so counterintuitive, but that’s when I grow the most. The past few weeks have allowed for a lot of growth and honestly there were many times I was filled with tears and fear and said “I don’t really want to grow anymore, I’m good where I’m at.” I'm not writing this to detract from the crisis at hand, but rather to shed a light on how important mental health is, especially in times of crisis. Climbers have always been so good at "conquering" or "rising above" fear that traditionally mental health has been taboo to talk about in our community. I know I felt ashamed to talk about anything that could be seen as weak or meager, something I should just “get over.” Thankfully with things like the @climbinggrieffund change is happening, but I feel like we can’t talk about mental health enough, especially these days. I've done several therapy sessions and feel like I'm resurfacing from a thick dark fog. I know I’m fortunate to be able to recognize when I need help and be in a position to get it. I’m sending love to anyone dealing with past or present trauma these days, or for anyone who is just human and feeling the weight of this all. And sending infinite thanks to all the medical professionals battling on the front lines, and the mental health professionals who are battling a crisis within a crisis. // @outdoorresearch @metoliusclimbing @touchstoneclimbing @bluewaterropes @osprepacks @skinourishment @clifbar @lasportivana #orambassador」4月5日 1時05分