ジェセニア・バイスのインスタグラム(iamjessenia) - 10月3日 00時30分

October is Domestic Violence Awareness Month. I was 23 years old when my abuser first laid his hands on me. It was random, he had been drinking, I was mortified. As I curled up into a fetal position on the floor, I begged him to stop. Instead, he kicked harder & cursed at me some more. When it finally stopped I was in shock. Too afraid to move, I laid there feeling every inch of my body hurt as the adrenaline subsided. I finally got up and made my way to the door. It was then that he started whaling ferocious tears claiming that I didn’t love him. It didn’t make sense then and it still doesn’t make sense now, but instead of running out on him to safety... I , instead , turned around to wipe his tears and console him. The hell I lived lasted about a year. Each time I tried to leave it got more dangerous until I gave up. I remember one day, I had enough .... I ran out the car and into oncoming traffic hoping I’d die. I couldn’t bare to live anymore. It’s through the grace of God that I’m no longer in that abusive relationship. One night on the way back to our apartment he started hitting me as I drove, making the car swerve. His hands then wrapped around my neck and my survival instincts kicked in. I accelerate the car fast enough so when I hit the brakes he flung to the dashboard, letting go of his grip and I managed to jump out of my moving car. There had been police officers doing night watch that saw it all. Had I known , I woulda ran to their direction. Instead I ran so hard in and out of ppls driveways until I finally found a gas station. It was then that the police told me they arrested him. My parents were notified and i was returned to their home. For DV victims and it’s survivors , its not just one month out the years , its everyday. I still have a lot of healing and I been putting in the work 13years later. When I made this s o n g , I did it with the intent to give victims & survivors hope. “Don’t tell me you love me, you don’t. I love me. So leave me alone. You know I got the ammo. Won’t sleep with the enemy, no , NO MORE!” — AMMO
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M u s i c V i d e o By: @bgranadfilms
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#dvawareness #dvsurvivor #domesticviolence #domesticviolenceawareness

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