マット・マクゴリーのインスタグラム(mattmcgorry) - 6月20日 06時46分

I moved away from my home of NYC around 6 years ago to start working on ‘How To Get Away With Murder.’ Every time, when I’ve gone back and visited, I’ve found myself overwhelmed, stressed out, and exhausted. Trying to see so many people, being asked to do work things and fit in all of the activities that I can only do in NYC made me feel constantly guilty if I felt like I was letting people down by not seeing them or overwhelmed because I never had enough alone time to recharge and do the things that I know allow me to thrive. The city has a pace that can support a never-ending grind, and it has been very easy for me to fall back into that pattern when I visit.
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This last trip, a few weeks ago, was the first time since moving away that I was able to say that overall my experience being back in NYC was joyful and that I truly loved it. I had to make time for naps, for reading, for spending time alone, and for sitting in the park just watching people go by. @jlovecalderon has been so helpful in this process, as we worked to transform my trips to NYC into one of joy...removing the word “should” from my mind, and exercising healthy boundaries.
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Being born and raised in New York City, I’ve always loved people-watching. And I’m grateful for even the simple moments of pause and reflection when I go back to NYC...the moments that make it feel more like living than visiting. Or course, it helps that it wasn’t spring so my allergies didn’t get fucked up, it’s not cold-ass winter, and it wasn’t so hot and humid that I felt like I was living inside of a sun-baked scrotum.
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I hope you enjoy this minute of the sights and sounds of the City (I’ll let you imagine the smells on your own).

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sahalsaver I feel this way every time I go back home for a visit. Im from NY, but not the city, however what you said about trying to visit everyone and fitting everything in, it's so overwhelming, and I find myself shutting down instead of being able to enjoy the moments with the people I love. So glad you found some peace and joy in your visit home. This moment in time is truly beautiful. Thanks for sharing

mattdepaola You were in Madison Square Park 5 blocks from my place and you didn’t call me?!?!? JK ?...always important to make maintaining balance (mind, body and soul) a priority. Everyone else can wait...we’re always here. when the time is right, it’ll happen. Miss you, hope you’re well brother!

2bnvd From a fellow LaGuardian NYer to another- the love hate relationship with the city is constant. Just depends which outweighs the other that makes some of us stay and other go. Whichever one allows you to spread your wings!

dansiratlarge Welcome back @mattmcgorry - is that Madison square park instead of Madison square garden? ? Been awhile man... hope to see you at some point. Glad you finally enjoyed a trip back!

jackiejaexo This post... Its really mind opening. The video.. But also how you wrote all this out. I felt the anxiety then the sense of relief.

jordanolberding I’ve also been working on eliminating “should” from my vocabulary! It’s been so helpful. Glad you enjoyed your trip :)

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