ベス・ロッデンさんのインスタグラム写真 - (ベス・ロッデンInstagram)「For as long as I can remember, I've been a pro at deflecting a compliment. It must not be that hard if I can do it. I just got lucky. It's only because I have small fingers. From first ascents to what I cooked for dinner, if someone said something nice to me, I turned it into a self denigrating statement. It felt safer. If I could be my own harshest critic, then no matter what someone said, it wouldn't hurt because I already said something worse. It all sounds so sad and backwards as I write it out. Last month, I went back to a climb that I couldn't do a couple years ago. I chalked it up to my belly rolls and vowed to lose weight and come back at a skinnier time. This year I have the same amount of belly rolls (maybe more) but I didn't let that dialogue start in my head. Instead I enjoyed the process we all love about climbing: problem solving, breaking down movements, and trying hard. At the end of the day I was able to do the problem, so happy. When I picked our son up from school that day he asked if I was able to do the climb. I told him I did and he smiled and gave me a huge hug and said he was proud of me. Without thinking I nearly said "it's really not that impressive buddy, it’s a warm up for most people," but I caught myself. I couldn't believe how instinctual the degrading, self protectionist dialogue was. I didn't want to teach him that he shouldn't be proud of something he worked hard for, or he shouldn't accept a genuine compliment. I smiled and said "thank you buddy, that means so much to me." Accepting a compliment has been one of the hardest things for me to learn on my long road to feeling at home in my body. It feels perilous and scary, but I realized that I need to be proud of myself before I can truly accept someone else being proud of me too. The next time you replace a compliment with a self denigrating comment, ask yourself if that criticism is what you would say to someone you loved. That question has been a game changer for me. It's amazing what a little love can do. // @outdoorresearch @metoliusclimbing @touchstoneclimbing @bluewaterropes @ospreypacks @skinourishment @clifbar @lasportivana #orambassador」2月5日 2時01分