ナジャテ・ルカイルさんのインスタグラム写真 - (ナジャテ・ルカイルInstagram)「It feels weird to be back. I took a break because the last 2 years were a nonstop crazy roller coaster and my soul needed to breathe a little. But the main reason I left (aka the final straw) was the sleepless nights I had scrolling through news sites and social feeds resulting in many nightmares of losing my child or husband or beloved friends. I felt guilty for going offline and not using my platform to raise awareness during that time. For wanting to just be myself without ~over~sharing myself. Your privilege allows you to detach and escape I kept telling myself. But then I realized that yes that might be true but I also am married to a black man and gave birth to a black son so that 3 month long escapism was my way of coping with these traumatic events. The situation in Holland might not be as bad as it is in the states but even my husband has been stopped on the streets, even when walking by with a stroller. Racism is everywhere and sometimes it feels as if we can't do nothing about it. I don't know how white women will treat my son in 10 years. I don't know if cops will mistake him for someone else. I don't know if teachers won't see his potential. The only thing I know is that I hope his generation will have to deal with less trauma. That he can live carefree and joyful that he can become whoever he wants to be. That his name won't become a hashtag or headline. And still, all these words feel so insufficient. I've told myself that I would come back online once I found the right words but it would probably take me a lifetime. In the end there's no perfect way to ease this unfathomable pain. Maybe these pictures of Nori living his best life are enough for now 🖤 #blacklivesmatter #blackboyjoy」8月24日 4時59分