湊ジュリアナさんのインスタグラム写真 - (湊ジュリアナInstagram)「Just turned 35 ✨Let me talk about my dark side.I started working at 10 cuz didn’t have money.That made me strong,study a lot,achieve anything I work on.I’m sensitive yet never gives.But my problem was,always prioritize others instead of myself.Good or bad that's me.Ive been depressed for over6years.Studied things to heal myself,but my depression got to a certain level,I couldn't do anything,my salvation was my parents.I seek for psychiatrist,psychologist,use of meds.Hormonal balance was messed up,was always in fight-or-flight mode.Depression is an invisible, scary thing. Mom found a good psycol.who I talked every week.There was a lot of pain in the journey,but life keeps repeating the same things in order to make u learn until u change.From the outside it’s a weak person Illness for some.But u only know when it happens.I heard a lot of voices,brainfog,anxiety,panic,joints& nerves pain,zombie life I couldn't wake up,sleep,nervous to meet people, light,sounds.Constant ups&numbness Im finally grateful that it happened.I discover how my body,mind,nutrition works,more conscious of self-love and care.I can wake up normally,walk again,eat,think clearly.I feel joy for such normal things~tried to talk about it many times,I was scared.if you feel that way,ure not alone💕Seek help from family, professionals,friends🙏 It not cuz you’re week you got ill.Its cuz you’re kind&strong that u tolerated too much of BS.On SNS ppl post how cool they seem.I was showing how okay I’m.It's okay not to be okay.When u feel like u don't have the motivation to keep going,try being grateful for the little things.like air,sky,earth,even small ants are trying their best to survive have an important role to play.Be careful the environment,people around,what u see,hear,protect ur energy,feelings,mind.Give urself love, put urself first.Rely on others✨I finally opened my heart.I’m not where I imagine to be at 35.but I'm grateful for what I have &future I have.Thanks mom&dad,psychiatrists, doctors,nutritionists who supported me for years,and everyone who support me. I’ll continue to work on myself,cherish the things that are important to me.Thanks for your continued support 💕 #depression」9月17日 10時52分