キノ・マクレガ―のインスタグラム(kinoyoga) - 1月11日 11時24分

There are some things I don’t want to face. It’s like I know I have to but I just somehow prefer to live in a bit of denial. I can think of big and small examples of how this plays out.
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Like today I was at the dentist for a cleaning and an exam. I like cleanings but hate exams. Even though the news was good I get all anxious sitting there wondering if I’d get bad news. First, I generally hate to be inspected in any way. There’s a part of me that doesn’t want to know if anything isn’t working or if something wrong about myself BC I guess it feels better to just live under the illusion that all is ok sometimes. It’s dumb, and a bit vain, but it’s just how I am. It’s even a thing if someone says, what’s that on your face? Well, that happens all the time BC I have a mark on my face and everyone often assumes it’s dirt. And I’m like, nope, that’s just my face. I’ve literally had people reach over and try to wipe it off my cheek!
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Then the big stuff. I don’t want to sit down with the vet tomorrow and go over the ultrasound results. I have a bad feeling BC they won’t release her. I was working all day so Tim visited her and said she was quiet today. We will go pick her up tomorrow and hear the news. They already advised us that we will have to keep her inside for awhile while she gets better. Tim has a cat allergy and he’s preparing to deal with it for a little while.
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The biggest thing that I literally cannot think about without losing it is the reality that my Mom and my husband will be gone one day. Tim is older than I am and it’s highly likely I’ll outlive him. My Mom is heathy, but she’s a type A and wants everything taken care of long before. When this kind of talk comes up all I want to do is dig my head in the sand and pretend that we will all live forever. But, that’s magical thinking and total delusion.
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Here’s what I know. Life is short and precious. It goes by in a flash, so quickly so you could almost miss it. Every human being has infinite capacity for love. It’s up to you to live your life fully and make it mean something. This is the real challenge.
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