Ashley Jamesさんのインスタグラム写真 - (Ashley JamesInstagram)「This is what happiness looks like for me at the moment. I was thinking today that when I had those 6 years of being single I did some amazing things: travelled the world, DJed, saw my friends all the time. It was the best experience. But in the times I wasn't travelling, I'd find it really hard to be happy if my feet were on the ground and I was at home. I remember I'd wake up in the morning and it was just me, and as I'd rarely be messaging anyone, it would be normal for me to wake up and not have anyone say good morning. I remember thinking how many people took that simple thing for granted. That - and having someone to unzip your dress at the end of the night. I remember thinking that one day someone would be there to say good morning and it was worth holding out for that right person. Well recently, I wake up to the sound of Alf - who for the most part wakes up around 6:30 / 7 for the first time in forever. And he comes into our room saying 'good morning mummy. Wakey wakey Ada!' And he wants to cuddle. Today he asked if Ada could sit on him and as a special treat we watched miss Rachel on the TV. And I thought - this right here - no makeup and messy hair - this is true happiness. I'm so grateful 🥲 And honestly, I have shared this before but in the low days when I mourned my old life and used to Google things like 'is it normal to regret Motherhood' rather than people telling me how much worse it would get ("you think this is bad! Wait until..."). I wish someone had just said, it's ok. It is hard. And it's normal to miss your life and find life monotonous - but one day those babies turn into people with personalities - who sleep! - and they're actually pretty fun. And you get to do lots of the old stuff but with the added bonus of all the amazing new stuff too. And you get to see your heart walking around every single day. And I know it will only get better and better. Mornings are now my favourite time of the day. And I don't have to chase happiness anymore, because it's right here: at home. 🤍✨ (Although side note I am very excited for the day that I can see friends more. But this chapter: I call mum era. The last time I have a baby.) 💙」7月27日 4時01分