Nicole Mejiaのインスタグラム(nicole_mejia) - 1月7日 15時00分

Unpopular opinion during the first week of 2021: it still feels like 2020.

Life is hard.

Even with tools.
Even with support.

They may make it easier, but not easy.

Life ebbs and flows.

There are times when I feel on top of the world.
There have been stretches of whole years where I felt completely unbreakable.
Then, there where moments where I struggled to stand on solid ground.

The past few months have been difficult.

I’m so sick of seeing positive shit all over my feed when all I’ve wanted was to just be real and be held.

Anyone else?

Life is hard. It’s ok to say that.

We feel so confident in posting the highs all over this platform but when it comes to the lows, we cower in shame of our reality.

As if it’s shameful to struggle.

As if we’re lesser humans because we’re working through difficulty in whatever form of hardship our life’s circumstance has served us: loss, depression, financial struggle, illness, loneliness.

One thing I’ve learned through my life and in observation of others is that life does not discriminate.

I am trying to stand proud in my struggle like so many before me. Like so many who do so silently.

I’ve been grappling with my sensitivity and how much I feel.
I feel so damn much.

I remember being a kid and hating that part or myself. I never knew how to meet myself in the depth.
And even with my tools, my darkness has been testing me lately.

Maybe it’s Winter blues? Perhaps.

Over the past few weeks, I could see how people become jaded and close themselves to love.
And how they, in turn, close themselves to life itself.

If I can be honest, I’ve been fighting that within myself.

But fuck. I know I’m on the brink. I know that before every breakthrough comes a breakdown—a test to see if you’re strong enough to build on your own strength.

I mean, what are we gonna do? Turn around?

No.

We press on.
We carry on.

From one human to another, I see you and I feel you.
Regardless of your past or present.
Regardless of party affiliation.
Regardless of any other faction us humans are so intent on dividing ourselves into.

Together, we carry onwards.

🛤

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